Thursday, January 27, 2022

Naming Names

for Rivka Augenfeld


It's a mouthful 

nominative determinism:

the optician name Glass,

the jeweler named Diamond,

the doctor named Payne,

the writer named Penn,

Fields the farmer, 

and you don't need to be a lexicographer 

to know what Carpenter, Cook and Banks do.


But rules don't always apply,

take Klein for example.

He was anything but small,

a giant, a master of words. 

When he wrote about himself

it was always about something bigger 

than himself,

his kin, his community, his country,

he grieved publicly 

for the whole damned broken world,

and then privately 

in silence.


Invoking the poet's significant influence 

on my insignificant life,

paying him homage - the least

I could do -

I misspoke, 

said his beloved daughter Sharon

had done herself in

at 27, 

joined that tragic club that includes

Jimi, Jim, Janis, Kurt and Amy,

but I was wrong about that,

it wasn't her decision,

or an accidental OD,

maybe I said that

for my own reasons,

a mystery.


And then there is

the Name of Names

the Creator,

the Almighty,

the Unpronounceable,

who I try to revive weekly

with my uttered blessings,

cup of red wine,

pale bread laid before me

covered

like a corpse.


If there is any certainty

it's that we don't always do 

what fate prescribes,

or see why

we should have faith

in what we can't name

but try we must,

again and again,

we must try.

Tuesday, January 18, 2022

Pandemy

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I give it to you

You give it to me

Want it or not

In this pandemy.


You don't know you have it

It's like that sometimes

You have and don't know it

It's hidden like rhyme.


Until others get it

And then you realize 

You were always infectious 

And then someone dies.


When she died, they said

A good mother, a good wife

A good sister, a good friend 

She led a good life.


Her goodness it spread

Like it was a virus

And now she is dead

But somehow inside us.  


She is gone, she is gone

One less link in the chain

Nothing but bones

And the pain, O the pain.


You have it too

For good or for ill

The symptoms will spread 

May restore or may kill.


I give it to you

You give it to me

Want it or not

In this pandemy.

Thursday, January 13, 2022

Other People's Dogs

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Kasha, DJ, Amber,

Jayson, Gus, Tulip,

even a Rex,

I've known quite a few

but I'm not an owner.


A friend said, I see you

walking a large pure bred,

something elegant, regal

like a Borzoi.


Clearly he doesn't know me,

my impoverished

great-grandparents

who barely escaped Russian pogroms 

with their life

over a century ago.


As far as dogs go

I don't care for the trained

obedience,

the slobbering lick-my-hand

deference,


they don't love,

that's a fiction,

they're loyal

inasmuch as pack animals

can be,

they respect only 

the pecking order,


get shelter

and an easy meal

a lazy life of leisure

and in exchange

we project onto them 

our deepest 

psychological needs.

 

I prefer

other people's dogs,

cause

they're not mine, 

they're not

me. 

Thursday, January 6, 2022

The Dog

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For David and DJ


I say 'come'

and you stay.

I say 'sit'

and you stand.

I say 'stay'

and you wander.

Forget about 'down'

or 'fetch'. 


You're a rascal

with your own ideas,

a nosy mischief-maker,

stubborn and meandering;

no lazy, fluff-ball

lap rug for a doddering

retiree, no arm-warming 

stud-collared accessory for a doting 

well-healed sugar momma,

you won't be toyed with,

or spoiled.


But even better

you're no ego-stroke either,

like those angular, muscular  

obedient breeds

that make their

emasculated owners

feel like 'masters' -

as if nature could be 

commanded or controlled 

like thought or desire,

as if.


You've got hunting DNA,

and remind me of me

when I was your age

(in human years),

a rebel, a lost cause, 

forever sniffing for clues,

pawing the dirt for remnants 

of the dead, scratching in corners

for signs of life behind walls, 

every neighbourhood

of this metropolis 

a tapestry of sensations,

every conjunction of streets

a possible direction.

 

In less bustling moments

there are times we are home,

when you do seem to listen, 

you stop suddenly 

and it strikes like sunshine through a window,

I see it come over you 

in your narrowing eyes,

the angle of your cocked ears,

and you become

the shadow at my feet

radiating warmth 

and fidelity,

and it brings me back 

to myself.