Wednesday, August 2, 2023

Is Consciousness a Question of Belief?

There has never been a smidgen or a scintilla or iota of evidence that human beings are made of anything other than material (mostly carbon), flesh and bone and biochemistry. Or that our thoughts and feelings are the product of anything other than material interactions. And yet many of us (possibly the majority?) persist in believing that there's something else to life. We used to call that something else, or tellingly that something more (ie. enduring, transcendent, eternal etc.) a soul, a spirit, an essence. One time I was talking about the soul and afterlife with an orthodox Jewish friend. When I told him I didn't see any evidence of it, his answer to me (in the form of a question, he was Jewish after all) was: So you think we live 75 or 80 years if we're lucky, most it with difficulty and suffering, and then die, and that's it? That's all there is to it? It felt weird to say yes, exactly - even though that pretty much sums up what I think - because the way he said that's all there is made it seem like it's nothing, which is not how I feel at all about the wonders and mystery of life. Life is indeed significant and meaningful, not in spite of its finiteness, but because of it. Seems to me that the notion that there needs to be something more to it,  actually comes down to one thing, and it's not belief (in God, the soul, the afterlife etc.), but rather it's disbelief that life might actually boil down to what is knowable.

This question of what is 'knowable' has intrigued us since the beginning of time. Scientists essentially have 'faith' that we can 'know' things about the world and it's their job to find it. Others, like philosophers and clergy, doubt that anything is knowable. For clergy it's presumptuous to think that we can know things about the world, because that would infringe on God's territory (and worse make us like God). It's summed up in the story of Job, namely, that we are meant to suffer in ignorance about God's plan, and it's the height of arrogance to think that we would deign to understand His reasoning. As God rebukes Job, “Where were you when I laid the foundation of the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding. Who determined its measurements – surely you know!" Of course, God intends this "surely you know" to put Job back in his place and shut him up.  

While the theologians tremble in fear that too much knowledge is a kind of sacrilege, the philosophers have made an intellectual game of it, pecking like crows over roadkill at the very question of whether anything is knowable, until nothing is left but the bones. Descartes famously posited dualism, the so-called mind-body 'problem' ie. that there's a gap between inner experience and outer reality that cannot be bridged. He came to the conclusion that there is only one thing we can know for sure and it's that each of us exists, because we think (read: we are conscious). As a result of the advancements in neuroscience, the same question has been reformatted into something philosophers have called the 'hard problem' of consciousness (Chalmers), a variation on the epistemological question of whether anything is knowable for certain. They say, even if we could map out the entire brain and correlate thoughts and emotions to our perceptions of the world, it doesn't get us any closer to understanding 'what it's like to be a bat' as one philosopher put it in the early 1970s (Nagel). In other words, ones individual experiences can't be explained by science (ie. they cannot be universalized). A lot of recent thinking takes Descartes' principle to an extreme in the opposite way. They argue that not only is individual existence the one sure thing, it's the only thing. They posit, with straight faces, that there is no external reality at all. What we are perceiving every day as reality is only a figment of our imagination, or put another way, a construct of our perceptions (Hoffman), which may only have a passing correspondence to reality. Others have similarly postulated that consciousness is so fundamental that it does not belong to us alone, but rather it's a fundamental principle of the universe, something that animates us, as oppposed to us animating it. This seems to me to be another kind of theology, God (universal consciousness) is 'ultimate' reality, an idea is as old as Plato.

Seems to me, as some great thinker might have said, the proof of the pudding is in the eating (read: experience = reality). In other words, the survival of each living organism depends on a capacity to perceive and experience the physical world with some degree of accuracy. If I am alive today (and it's not a big if) it is testament to the fact that all those creatures who came before me in the great chain of life, both human and subhuman species, that made my unlikely existence possible, had to reconcile their perception with external reality to the extent that it would ensure a lineage of survival. There's nothing too mysterious about consciousness in this sense if we understand it as a necessary mechanism for survival in animal species, and one that is the product of adaptation that has proven to be supremely suited for survival (thus far). It's a mechanism that has been continually finetuned over time, in exactly the same way all biological adaptations get finetuned. Since adaptation is such a critical part of the process, this idea that we are a product of our environment has always been literally true. Nowadays, the environment is literally becoming a product of us, which is a paradigmatic shift in reality. In this sense it's a reflection of our current state of consciousness that our world is ailing. Some of us seem to take some sort of comfort in thinking that reality is really just a hologram, a figment of imagination, or a question of belief. In other words, it's only a function of us. And in some respects I suppose it may be, to our peril. 

Saturday, July 29, 2023

Dog Food Voiceover

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One time I did a voiceover

A TV ad for dog food

I was the voice of a dog 

As he scoured the neighbourhood

This dog he talks to himself 

Follows his nose down the street

Every lamp post and every hydrant

Reminding him of the people he'd meet

The skid row junkies

Sweet urine on concrete

Bowery Bums draining bottles

A tasty scrap of pre-chewed meat 

I live at the level of your feet

Where your soul hits the dirty street

Every dog sniffs out his dignity

In the corners of the city

People go about their business

Places they need to be

And sometimes a friendly hand

Reaches out to comfort me

Most people are good

At least that's what I've found

From following my nose 

Really close to the ground

Everyone has their troubles

But they mean well


That's what I can say

They mostly mean well. 


Friday, July 21, 2023

At the fine art museum

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expensive paintings on the wall 

priceless comes to mind 

you browse

without touching

lean in to read the small card

bottom right

Artist Title Date

search for the story

told inside the frame 

hear echoes 

of syncopated footsteps

nervous cough stabbing 

the tense silence

and your beating heart

like something out of Poe

the presence of

anonymous

circulating beings

closing in 

and in particular 

the one standing

behind you craning

to get a view

begin to feel slightly nauseous 

paranoid

the uniformed security guard 

in the corner 

trying to look inconspicuous 

and you try  

to go about your business

but it's no use 

you've been trying  

and trying 

but just don't get it

and you need to sit down

you're exhausted 

depleted

deflated

you look around

don't understand

can no longer feign interest

and she suspects

as you do 

that you don't belong

you're a phony

inauthentic

unoriginal

worthless comes to mind

and you must leave

or risk

making a scene.

Sunday, July 16, 2023

Don't Know What You're Missing

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It's one of those nights,

The clouds are dark and heavy,

There's lightning in the distance,

The air is thick and ready.


I'm thinkin about a girl,

She was smart and she was pretty,

Thought she could do no wrong,

Until she noticed me.


If you've never had your heart broken,

You don't know what you're missing.


One day she looked right through me, 

Like I was made of glass,

Knew something wasn't right,

I didn't even have to ask.


I did some heavy drinkin,

And waited for the rain,

There was lightning, there was thunder,

But the rain it never came.


If you've never had your heart broken,

You don't know what you're missing.


Sometimes I tell myself,

She took you for a ride,

Other times I want to thank her,

For what I feel inside.


Every glass I empty,

Reminds me I can shatter.

Cause a girl who I once loved,

Made me feel that I matter. 


If you've never had your heart broken,

You don't know what you're missing.

Wednesday, July 12, 2023

Milan Kundera (1929-2023)

 “One morning (and it will be soon), when everyone wakes up as a writer, the age of universal deafness and incomprehension will have arrived.”

― The Book of Laughter and Forgetting

Saturday, July 8, 2023

Wimbledon in July

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I'm always checking the tennis scores

            these days. 

Maybe it's because

                I remember my parents

playing it for a time.


They were in their 40s

                and tennis seems to be a game

folks at mid-life like to take up

              like golf,

except unlike golf you need two

                    in tennis, it's a couples game, 

which may also be 

                why they say 'love' 

and it means you're losing.


My parents took up tennis

                        as a last ditch attempt 

to find something in common

                    after the kids had grown up.

There was a lot of back and forth

              between them, but it didn't work.

They split.

                   Now my kids are grown up.


When she was single

                    I remember mom

sitting in her bed

                        on weekends

watching tennis on TV

               a tub of Rocky Road in her lap

a big spoon in her racket hand,

                       it was Wimbledon in July, 

the manicured green,

                  players in all-white, 

Gentlemen and Ladies,

                                  royals in the stands, 

strawberries and cream,

                         the overcast dreariness 

and constant rain delays.


Mom dated quite a bit

            after dad left

but eventually gave up

                  never found her 

perfect match.


I wonder if she ever

                really thought it possible.

Saturday, July 1, 2023

E Pluribus Unum

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While you are waiting

for something to happen

life happens

:

the plane's been delayed

again, and there you are 

powerless as a mob of zombies 

gawking up

at the big sign suspended

between arrivals and departures

no answers

some of you even holding flowers 

bouquets of roses and lilies 

dying by the minute

celebrations on-hold

you look around 

and suddenly 

snap out of it

:

nothing matters

and everything matters

at the same time 

like a heads/tails currency 

you've been pocketing 

your whole life 

it all makes sense now

like coinage you can spend

on anything

stamped with

E Pluribus Unum.